i mean i have came to the realazation that i have had thee greatest oportunites placed in front of me that any young man could have, and in the end of the night i have passed them alll up for petty living.
i regret 99 percent of my life. without a doubt.

i live so much, i feel the world but i waas to young to understand what was in front of me but no longer will i live the life that i have been living,

i move out to the west in 4 days and my life will be changed, and let me say my life   will  be changed… 

-To her

we were young, never kissed but were pretty good friends, 

we would talk about love but i never held your hand

never in my life have a felt a feeling so pure

its like i had just walked through an angles front door.

i never had fallen at all, and even now not as hard.

I fell for an angel, with ripped jeans and a dog

i cant honestly say what i wore yesterday, 

but as simple as you were dressed it will always stick with me.

I know you felt my heart racing because i felt yours too,

two young kids with no clue what to do.

Now were a little bit older and life is taking its path,

and once were a little older we will i hope we can pick up with our past.

ill take you to the top of the highest tower, 

get on my knee, and hope i can be with you forever.

-ml

Beauty. Take Beauty in with every breath of air. The thing we as human individuals dont realize is how long life really is… You see we choose to pick out only extreme parts of our life, usually times when you feel that that specific time had made you or changed you but what we tent to forget is all of the in betweens, we spend so much time doing nothing! I believe life is too short, But I feel like we can change that buy filling empty memories or boring forgotten times with new excitement and new light, because we can. 

Granit i have put one or three two many drinks to my lips in the late hours of a Saturday night, but i feel more then anything that i believe this world should hear me scream is that this life is what you make it…. Make it what ever the fuck you what, you can be what ever you ever dreamed and don’t let anyone try to ever tell you different.

ever. ever.

…Life is to short to be forgotten.

Drive fast until you crash

through your windshield is where i pictured you ass

aint never did a god damn thing besides be the thing that never became of me

but was it my own fault, got trapt in ur cult, cult up in your eyes and not the things inside.

First thing i loved, first thing i hated, shit i even regret we even dated, 

You called it a love story, i didnt realize i was a book of a big serious.

as it reached the climax, you flipped the books and forgot about the last.

feel your scared, feel your scared feel your into drama? but its cool, your sleep and yoru wake up tomorrow.

big smile on your, laugh laugh it off, not a care in the world i wanna snack it off.

the pain your brought, and the pain that you delt, you would never understand the things that i fault.

you could never understand the pain that you brought, when you knew something was wrong and you just laughed it off.

But now im growing, getting older, learning to let shit go and just keep flowing.

a burnt red wood.

Like a hundred foot redwood that you have takin a hatchet to. scraping the bark so that it entwined in to thread… Ive had a pounded headake for the past three days now and i don’t know how to make out all of these confessions the I’m spilling out to myself for the past 72 hours. Chance, change that i need to make for myself for my own because the way i have been living, treating people and handling situations through out my life have been wrong, and I’m the first one now to say that to myself. Although i realize i am not as important of a individual for some one to want to take the time to read my late night online blogs right now i feel i need to clear my self, even if it is to a machine that i am typing on. I have pushed away every good thing in my life up to this point because ive always been to heard headed, to big headed to what ever. I catch myself in a twister of thought everyday and i cant get out, I’m stuck sometimes. and its hard to realize who i am right now. Hard to cope with who i was in the past, and everything Ive Gavin up… because i was to scare or to confident… . I’m seeing now who i need to become and the MANI need to turn into and become… I’ve let a lot of people down in this life so far, change. Change is needed and is not always bad, people dont always realize that because they get to comfortable with the norm. Its hard to look in the mirror and not see your self… Not see who you want to be and not see who your supposed to be, Not knowing who to trust even if yourself is one of those people. We all need to make changes, I need to make changes, for one in my life.